Dear Paci Fairy,
Please make this quick.
Well for the past six months or so we have been talking on and off to A about the pacifier fairy who will take your paci's to little girl and boy babies who don't have pacifiers. Then, today, out of the blue, A decided she was ready to give her paci's to the fairy. All morning I kept reminding her that when you give your pacis away the fairy will take them to girls and boys who need them, and you won't have them anymore. But each time she looked at me and told me she was ready. And when we walked in the door after lunch, you better believe she grabbed my hand and marched me right upstairs to get her pacis.
We decided that the pacifier fairy would find them best if they were in the little box in our room, which A loves to play with. And after digging all the ones I could find out of her room, I let her put them in the box. Then with a gentle rub and a wish for all the babies out there who would need them, we closed the box and headed to her room for nap time.
But as I laid her in her crib, she began sobbing for her pacifiers. I knew this would be one of the toughest decisions I have ever made, but I decided not to cave. I left her in her crib, ran into my room and grabbed the box. Then I stuffed her pacis in the drawer in my room, sprinkled some sparkly eye shadow I had, and brought it back into A's room to show her the paci fairy had already come and left some magic fairy dust in the box.
It has now been 38 minutes and counting of crying, with breaks so small I get my hopes up she is calmed down, only to hear her break into sobs again. I went up once to read her Fancy Nancy and snuggle her, and to tell her how proud I was of her selfless giving...but my heart is still breaking into tiny pieces each time she cries.
I know this is for the best, or at least I hope it is...but why does it have to be so hard?